Depression or Emotion number 5

Emotion number five.

Yeah it’s crazy, real crazy,

for me because it’s like there’s nothing I can do to fix it but then there sort of is but this eerie tiredness kicks in and stops the fix

But then do I even want to fix it, I guess I do

But then I get lost, searching for the fix,

it’s like when it’s not there then there was never a problem in the first place but when it is there there’s no way to get out,

Even though there is,

Cos there must have been times when I was there and just not noticed
And of course plenty down times before that I got out, so somewhere there is a way

And when I say crazy I mean normal, because it makes sense to think like that, I think a lot of people do, at least I know I do,

And the weirdest thing I find is when I’m feeling bad about my problems my mind makes me feel worse because my problems don’t seem like real problems at all,

But that’s good, I suppose, cos it’s a pretty real human emotion

It means were alive and that even in the darkness our souls (which just made me laugh because our souls sounds like assholes) believe in life, light.

So that means there’s nothing wrong with depression, in fact it makes it all right, it makes sense to feel bad, and it makes sense to feel bad about feeling bad,

I’ve known that sometimes it’s nice to hide, hibernate, step outside of the world, what I find great is that it’s never too late

When I came back to the world it was like I never even left.

And deep down there is no real pressure or any rush to return.

- So now I can look back and turn my experience into a story, its like taking a sad song and making it better.

Ping!

Pong!

Ting!